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In the past, I usually work, (Nocturnal shifts, 3rd shifts, or the night shift) or I spend it alone. in 2002 I spent it with a guy I met, and we went to a party. I had a lot of fun, except the stories from the EX who was there. I did run into others I knew at this party as well. However since 2006 I have spent New years alone, watching movies usually 1 movie has been constant. RENT and a bottle or 2 of wine. This year the plans are hang out with Derek, and his brother and his brothers friend watching movies (Star Trek TNG movies) I will incorporate wine for myself of course, and probably also pizza. (as that has been my tradition as well)
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Dec. 23rd, 2009 @ 03:01 am
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Tonight or rather this morning since it's 3am. Reason I'm up; Monku just ate his dinner. So I read the newsfeed on facebook only to get frustrated with some stupid close minded post.
Danielle's son, is worried at the age of 10 that a metor is going to destroy the earth in 2012.
A friend of hers, said " he has nothing to worry about Obama will be out of office by then" Which of he won't be out of the office, but the possibility of him being voted out that year could happen. I don't want to see that happen of course. But what does Obama and a meteor have in common?
I wrote this from my Android phone, so pardon the entry.Current Mood:  aggravated |
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I wasn't going to mention this but since it's like everywhere. Brittney Murphy died today. She was 32 and it was a Cardiac Arrest. Now I'm not a dummy but for someone that young to have and die of a Cardiac Arrest, there are underlying issues. Drugs: Prescription drugs, illegal drugs. Some other health condition. Did she have an eating disorder? People can be sad for her loss, she contributed a lot with TV and movies. Am I sad that she died? I guess I don't know, I guess time will tell, will an autopsy be performed and will it be publicly announced with the results?
I was sadden when Heath Ledger died, and Johnathan Brandis, ( suicide) but not crying. There are only a few I'll cry over. I think I've mentioned them before. However once again, the biggest celeb I'll probably be heart broken over is Dick Van Dyke. Laugh all you want but he is a great performer over the years and I love his humor, his dancing and just everything he brings to the TV or movie screen. It's Dick Van Dyke people! I grew up watching Merry Poppins, and Chitty Chitty Bang Bang and than some. I didn't grow up watching Brittney Murphy movies I enjoyed her work yes, I enjoyed a lot of peoples work on the screen.
I don't want to hear about any 32 year old dying of cardiac arrest period. If her death was a fluke than I truely hope that it opens peoples eyes that things like that can happen to younger adults and not just someone older. If it was due to health reasons that SHE contributed to herself, than I'm very sorry but you do reap what you soe. (even if it was something done years ago that put the strain on your heart than) Don't get me wrong again, I didn't like hearing Chris Farley died, but again he died by his own stupidity. Johnathan Brandis I don't promote suicide or think it's the right route, but I've been in that dark hole where he was where all you felt was suicide was the only way out. I've jumped around, I have ranted.
Many Celebs died this year, due to Cancer, or other issues. I suppose everyone has their way of seeing death with celebs. Current Mood:  tired |
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Snow is just fine, when it comes to Christmas. In Minnesota it's something one comes to expect. After New Years Day, I'm all for it going away until the following season. Snow maybe beautiful, but it is also annoying and it always bring the cold as well. So yeah dreaming of a White Christmas is just fine. However it can leave shortly after.Current Mood: cold |
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Christmas is just around the corner. For the first time in years I'm glad about this. This Christmas I have a boyfriend, who I get to spend Christmas with. I've reconnected with people, and I'm happy. I almost feel like nothing could go wrong this Christmas. It will be a better one, than one in the last couple of years. Nothing can bring me down Nothing.
Not even the evil doer's of political correctness. It's Christmas it's Merry Christmas. I celebrate Christmas. If you don't celebrate it that is your right. However in ways you get to benefit from Christmas. You get double or triple time if you work most likely or you get the day off, and possibly paid. So get over your self you get to benefit from something you don't celebrate. Don't wreak my holiday. I don't wreak your non-belief and I don't ruin anyone else who celebrates a holiday when I don't. That is a great thing about this Country. MOVE ON! if someone told me Happy Hanukkah, I'll say it back to them, and not think anything about it. If someone says something about Yom Kippar I'm happy for them and move on. If you say Happy Holiday's because it's that time of year and you don't celebrate that, I'll say Happy Holiday's back and move on. If you say nothing, I might say Merry Christmas you can move on but don't tell me I am in the wrong, it's my right to say it and it's your right not to say it. I'm not going to be politically correct on this, I'm not going to tip toe around something I celebrate.
So Merry Christmas to you!
Dec. 19th, 2009 @ 04:04 pm
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my boyfriends cat, Sprite is a wonderful cat. Despite not liking to be held or adorn attention. We give it to him anyway. He does seem to love burts bee's lip balm preferably the pepermint. I haven't checked the other types. He doesn't react to blistex or chapstick brand. Anytime I put it on, he is right there to lick it off. It's actually adorable. He even tries to carry the stick around in his mouth, and bite the cap off.
The only he I don't like is he loves to show his affection to me, by urinating on my clothes. He has done it to a shirt the morning I was going to wear it. Even today after he mauled me with affection wanting to be pet and all that without being picked up of course. As I was getting ready to leave for work I noticed he urinated on my winter coat. Thankfully on the gold waterproof side and not the soft maroon side. Still gross still going to be smelly.
Sprite has his moments, this wasn't one of the cutest moments that's foresure.
Dec. 17th, 2009 @ 04:08 pm
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About a year ago, one of my best friends in the whole world deleted me from her life. Last week I had a tugging to contact her and see if she is ok. Tonight we spent over an hour texting each other about each others lives in the past year. She is well, I'm well and that is what matters I suppose.
I don't know where it will go. Nothing will be the same but that is probably a good thing.
I just hope that things for her go well and she can stay happy.
Dec. 11th, 2009 @ 10:10 pm
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You know how sometimes people on your friends list post about stuff going on in their life, and all of a sudden you think "Wait a minute? Since when were they working THERE? Since when were they dating HIM/HER? Since when???" And then you wonder how you could have missed all that seemingly pretty standard information, but somehow you feel too ashamed to ask for clarification because it seems like info you should already know? It happens to all of us sometimes.
Please copy the topics below, erase my answers and put yours in their place, and then post it in your journal (or a comment here. Or wherever you feel like, really)! Please elaborate on the questions that would benefit from elaboration. One-Word-Answers seldom help anyone out.
FIRST NAME:
Diana
AGE:
30 (September 1979)
LOCATION:
Twin Cities Minnesota
OCCUPATION:
Part time PCA I take care of a boy with Autism.
PARTNER:
Derek, He is 26 and a great guy. We met online in May, and talked online for months. Then in Aug, we met for a drink completly as friends. He came to my birthday party. For the month of Sept and most of Oct, we hung out then near the end of Oct we got together. It's been a great month so far.
KIDS:
None, I miscarried in 2002 at 10 in a half weeks.
BROTHERS/SISTERS:
I have one brother. he is 27 he has one child her name is Olivia. Steve and I didn't get along growing up. Infact he pretty much tried to kill me or at least harm me in many ways. Though in the past couple of years he has turned around, and is now protective of me, and a great person.
PETS:
I have no pets of my own. I live vicariously though friends and family. Derek has a cat named Sprite, My parents have 2 dogs Griffin and Maddy. My uncle has Monku and Liza, and my cousin has a dog named Pixi. I love all theses animals as if they are mine. Even though I'm allergic to Sprite.
3-5 THINGS GOING ON IN MY LIFE:
1. My relationship with Derek. See above for info.
2. Finding a Full time job or another client to at least get hours that is at full time.
3. Going through therapy to keep depression, anxiety and ADHD under control.
4. Getting ready for Christmas
PARENTS:
My mom is like my best friend. I can tell her just about anything at least with in reason. Her name is Candy, and I am very proud of her. She no longer drinks or smokes cigarettes. She is happy to be a grandmother and she has stated to me she is ready for another grandchild, but she needs to wait on that from me. She is a supervisor at a group home and is a co-guardian to a young lady with Down Syndrome.
My dad is a good guy. He is very strict, and is stuck in his ways. He always comes through when I need him though. It might cost me a lecture or 2. He no longer drinks or smokes as well.
CLOSE FRIENDS:
Anddi, she is probably my best friend I have. I have known her since high school. After I graduated I lost track of her. Then back in 2002 I ran into her up in Duluth, in a theater class we both ended up taking. This was a total coincidence. Then later that spring we both lost track of each other again. Then in 2004 I heard my name or more a nickname calling me at Michael's, (a craft store) it was Anddi. After all that we ended up moving in together. As Roommates. After some drama with some other roommates I ended up moving back to the twin cities. We lost track of each other again, but after Facebook, and she moved back to the Twin cities we have been inseparable this year (2009). She likes Derek, and we hang out. We basically hang out when we can go to drag shows (she is a lesbian) We are like sisters.
Kassie, I know Kassie from school, we hang out when we have a chance. She works full time and doesn't have a lot of time because when she is off and her boyfriend is off they hang out which makes a lot of sense.
Derek , of course is a good friend (see above)
Dec. 2nd, 2009 @ 12:20 pm
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I'm happy, I've been able to move on from many things in my life, that brought stress, and chaotic feelings. I found someone who makes me smile, who arouses emotions that are wonderful. We found a medication that helps me function with out as much anxiety, and with out feeling worthless. The best part with that is that it's not even a max dose.
I feel tired but that is because I get sleep but if I have nothing to do I sleep more. I have some interesting dreams. I've made my choice with what to do about school. Everyone supports that.
It's turning out to be a good end of the year. Only a month left.
Dec. 1st, 2009 @ 02:39 pm
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It's that time of year. I need to think of what to get certain people. Mainly Olivia, my parents, Steve and Danielle, Anddi and of course Derek. What do I get is beyond me for anyone of them. Olivia is probably the easiest Steve told me to get her books, board books and flip up to revile more pictures or something.
I don't even know what I want. I know some things I want, but they are wishes that I won't even ask for because of price and such. Gift cards, movies, a blu ray player etc.. are things I want of course. A new car would be greatly appreciated (one can wish) A vacation to anywhere but here for 3-7 days. wouldn't that be grand.
All this is on the big wish list one or at least the dream wish.
Nov. 23rd, 2009 @ 10:43 pm
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So this is it. I probably will never make it as an Occupational Therapy Assistant. My fieldwork supervisor has already made her choice in me and today I hear my fate. In fact, I was told not to even come in today. So now I owe lots of money, in loans, and to my grandparents and to Thom and everyone else, and I don't even get a degree to show for it. I get NOTHING! except a huge slap in the face and a road to loser-hood.
I have wanted to be a COTA for 11 years. It has taken me years to get to school and get this far, and now I'm totally fucked for it and I'm just a loser for it.
I'm holding back tears because I can't break down now, I have to hold it together at least until later tonight.
Nov. 4th, 2009 @ 01:53 pm
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Last night Derek and I went to Trail of Terror in Shakopee Minnesota. Anddi, Ty, and Ian were suppose to join us but things have changed. In the very end it was nice that it didn't happen that way. It would have also been nice if they joined us as well. Derek and I got to have a real kind of date, even if it wasn't that frightful. We did the haunted maze, which was probably the most scary part of the night. We then watched the comedic hypnotist. We then went to the Butcher which was a terror trailer, that one wasn't very scary, but it was probably the best of the terror trailers. We went to the Mind Bender, which since people were coming out screaming we thought would have been good. It was a disappointment. As was the Vampire Chamber.
The hayride, was pretty cool, I always love hayrides. There were some girls who were rather annoying and they didn't exactly get the jokes that were told, when the ride had to stop because some idiot in another ride jumped off or fell off or it was part of the ride, either way the girls were kind of annoying. After that the hayride, we sat at the bonfire for a few minutes. He took a good picture of me, I'll post when he has it up.
The whole night was great thanks to wonderful company. He held my hand, or had his arms around me most of the night. It was very nice. After we left, he came in for a little while,we talked, cuddled and watched Hannibal well mostly it was on for background noise. All in all it was a wonderful night.
Nov. 1st, 2009 @ 11:08 am
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Last night I went to Anoka MN and had a nice time with my friend Kassie. For a while I was having a good time, but after a while I wasn't feeling very well probably due to feeling tired. We hung out with some people I have no idea who they are. Only a few songs were played that I enjoyed at the Bar, A lot of the music is music I have no idea what it is like nor like it.
That was all of Anoka I did we went to Jackson street bar I think it was called. Driving home it was a light sleet. which btw isn't exactly fun and who the hell wants to see that in Oct near Halloween. I'm not dressing up tonight, I'm dressing up warm and going to enjoy tonight for what it is.
Happy Halloween Everyone!
Oct. 31st, 2009 @ 02:39 pm
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I'm going as a pirate. I was already one for a Halloween themed night with some friends. I am going tonight as well, to the Halloween Capitol of the World Anoka, Minnesota, dressed up. Tomorrow for Halloween I'm not dressing up, but will be going to Trail of Terror in Shakopee, Minnesota, with friends.
Oct. 30th, 2009 @ 06:39 pm
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So, today I get notified that my adviser at Anoka Techinical College is coming out for midterm. Usually when this happens it is never a good thing. It is in fact not something I need to have to Worry about all weekend and yes I will be worrying about it all weekend and Monday probably to the point that, I will make myself sick. I am actually trying to not to cry and break down currently. Having my bottle of wine sounds good but I probably shouldn't do that. I'll watch TV on tivo and do about nothing else. Find out what plans are for tomorrow from Anddi and go from there.
I'm just going crazy trying so hard with my fieldwork and I'm more and more afraid I'm not going to make it. and that I am to blame for all of this. This is something I want to do Scream and shout. I'm going to be stuck at home in my room wishing I wasn't hearing Thom and Ricky watch their movie or whatever they are doing.
I wish I had something good to say about this fieldwork. but sadly I don't.
Oct. 30th, 2009 @ 04:03 pm
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I'm wondering if I'm even going to make it to graduation. My supervisor there doesn't or at least that is what she told me on Monday :( What if I don't make it? I can't do it again. What this will do to me is scary, I don't want another failuar on me especially when I have tried so hard to get to this spot in school.
Other then my fieldwork, a lot of other things have gone well. (minus car fail) I found out who are my true friends are, and I have. Anddi and Derek are great friends and I'm very thankful to them. I have a new job, and despite the fact, that it's only a few hours at least I have a small job and a little money coming in.
Oct. 29th, 2009 @ 07:50 pm
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On our way to Fargo North Dakota my water pump went out. We are in a small town called Evansville, Minnesota
Oct. 26th, 2009 @ 07:28 pm
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I'm on Day two already of my fieldwork. So, far I feel ok. Not completely confident. But I feel ok. I did need to take an anti-anxiety today. I think I am going to need to take them at least 2x while there. Once in the morning and once after lunch. I don't see my dose working but I have an appointment in a couple of weeks so maybe I can get it raised.
I already have 1 on my caseload and tomorrow 2 more have been added. I have to be at the site at 6:30 which is fine, except by the time I get home just after 3 I am exhausted it's unbelievable. Dec 4th can't come soon enough.
Oct. 13th, 2009 @ 08:16 pm
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| » The last few weeks. |
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In short, besides geocaching. I have been pretty much nothing. I start my fieldwork on Monday, my tuition is paid thank to my grandfather. I honestly just don't have a mood to journal much. I had a panic attack a couple of weekends ago. I was switched from the generiac Celexa and put on the generiac Effexor. Otherwise not much else.
When I'm back in the mood I'll write more. At the moment I'm just trying to get by day by day.
Oct. 7th, 2009 @ 09:33 pm
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